Well, we're just about a week away from June. My 2nd least favorite month after October. June has 3 dates that I'm not looking forward to. Two of them more then the third. First up is Hannah's Birthday on June 5, then it's Father's Day June 21st, and then Kathie and my wedding Anniversary on June 24th.

Hannah would have been 8 years old. Not a real milestone birthday but another birthday missed. Allie is now 4 years old and that's how old Hannah was when she was diagnosed. Four years ago, life was pretty good. Life's still not to bad, it's just changed to a place I would never have imagined. This is one of the two days I'm looking forward to least.

Father's day will be OK, better I think then Mother's Day, at least from my perspective. Allie has her Father, she didn't have her Mother a couple of weeks ago. She did make due with Grandmothers so there is that. For me, I will still have Allie to be with on Father's Day. But I'm lucky enough to have a Father's Day just about every day. Still, I will miss my Hannah and Kathie to be there with me.

Kathie and I would have been married for 9 years next month. Sometimes I think we decided to get married in 2000 so it would be easy to keep track of how many years each anniversary. It's far to short a time, but we did have a good 8 1/4 years. Well, let me rephrase that. We had a good 5 years, then it started to have some bumps in the road. I had no idea that "Till Death do you part" would happen quite so soon. I was hoping it would be another 40+ years in the future.

All that being said however, I'm doing OK. Still having some rough patches here and there. Allie as well. It's hard to know exactly how she's doing. I don't have the skills to psychoanalyze a child. I know she misses Kathie more then Hannah but she does miss Hannah. It's just that she didn't know Hannah as well, Allie was only 18 months when Hannah passed away. So she doesn't have a lot of memories of her own. With Kathie, there are lots of memories.

On the plus side, it's been a good fundraising month for the foundation. Our Golf Tournament raised over $12000, another $5000 donated through Orb clothing and Allie's dance studio, Deas Island Dance is holding a raffle with proceeds coming to the foundation. The Grand Prize is a week's accommodation at a 5star resort in Mexico, second prize is a signed Canucks Jersey and 3rd prize is a a 16Gb iPod Touch. If you're interested in getting a ticket, let me know.  1for $5 and 3 for $10. Final Draw is on June 7th.

Allie's has her big end of the year dance show coming in a couple of weeks. They are doing Mary Poppins. And before you ask, Allie is not playing Mary Poppins or the little girl Jane. She's in a dance number with her other classmates but perhaps in a few year, she will be the star.

Well, It's time for me to head off to bed. So that's it for tonight.

Take Care,

Tore and Allie